Sebastian X Reader - Finding true love Ch.4

Everything became red. Is red a beautiful color? You couldn't say.
Sebastian laid his hand on your head and you remembered a bit of your past.
"Why? Why do you want to sent me away?", 'It's just the best for you', a voice ringed in your head, "Why...I can't understand", 'There is nothing to understand'.
You found yourself in a place where other children lived, they were all abandoned from their parents. You didn't like it at all, you just wanted to go home. After a while you became really desperate, but you didn't show it.
One day you met a guy, he didn't look nice, but you didn't really care, since you were a kid at this time and you trusted him easily. He gave you a toy and told you to play with it when you are back in your room and that was what you did. You ran back to your room and opened the toy and after a few seconds everything burnt down. You didn't know how this could have happened and you fell unconscious in your room.
Your parents got a letter that you died in the flames, which was not the case.
"Oh my...what happened here?", a voice whispered and saw you lying on the floor. The person grabbed your body and ran away with you to safe you. The hospital was near to the burning building and the man laid you down on a bench, touched your forehead and smiled sadly.
He watched you for a few minutes and whispered: "You will remember me and one day...you will pay me back with your soul", he smiled and his eyes turned pink/red. He disappeared before a nurse found you and brought you into the hospital.

You came back in the world were you belonged. Your heart raced and you gasped. Sebastian was hugging you and whispered: "Do you finally remember?" "Did this...really happened?", you asked him and shuddered. Sebastian smiled a bit and answered: "Yes, but that wasn't everything yet, but it's enough for today to know about it". He stroked over your hair and closed his eyes. The more you know about your past, the more your soul will taste more delicious to him. He licked over his lips, he would like to eat you right away, but also Sebastian knew that he has to wait for it. Also if he let's you remember more, you probably get more anxiety about everything and his plan was also that fall in love with him to get your soul faster.
You snuggled to him and still shuddered further. You can remember the part now what happened before, but you didn't really know why. You clinged to him and he whispered: "Do you have any wishes, my lady? I don't like to see you so frighten like that". You couldn't really answer something to this, since you were still shocked about it. You stood up and went to your bathroom and closed it. You gasped and looked into the mirror, "What happened?", you asked yourself and look at the sign in your eye.
Meanwhile you were in the bathroom, Sebastian stroked your cat further and smiled to her/him. "You know...I am one hell of a butler, maybe you want to have something?", he said to your cat and she/he just replied with a meow and turned around to show him her/his belly. Sebastian giggled and fondled his/her belly, "You are a really cute one...like your owner. Also your fur is so soft", he sighed and then stroked over his/her pawns, "they are so soft too and your claws are also so nice and sharp", he had to put his head to the belly of your cat. Your cat purred and so did Sebastian. And when you came back, you actually saw the scene and didn't really know how to react to that, but somehow you wished to be your cat at the moment.

"My butler is in love with my cat", you said and he looked at you and you added, "what should I do?  I think I should Google this". He blinked at you and answered: "Are you jealous ___(y/n)___?" "Nooo, why should I?", you asked him and Sebastian giggled, "Well you look like it and I bet you would also like it if I would stroke you". You blushed a bit and took out your phone to google it to find some answers to this, unfortunately you didn't find something helpful.
At the end, you sat beside him again and sighed. "What do you want for lunch my lady?", he asked you and you answered, "Just something, I don't care about that much at the moment". "Yes, my lady", he said and stroked your cheek once, then got up and made some food for you and for your cat.

Your soul is like a kitchen too. I have to cook it, that it has the right flavour. I will put some spices on your soul and then I will have a delicious meal
Sebastian smiled and licked over his lips, meanwhile you ate your food and smiled, since it was so good again, "You are truly the best cook, Sebastian" "Thank you, my lady", he answered.

When evening arrived and Sebastian told you to go to bed already, cause it was nearly midnight and you watched TV all the time, but your thought where still stuck in your past, you did what he said after some minutes. You were in bed now with your cat, but you still couldn't fall sleep. You sat up again and tried so hard to remember more from your past, but you couldn't and you felt exhausted. "Sebastian", you whispered and he entered your room and answered: "Yes my lady? You are still awake?". You just sat there and he walked to you. Finally you met his gaze and you whispered: "Stay here until I fall asleep" "Of course my lady", he said and you laid back again. He kissed your forehead and looked into your ___(e/c)___ eyes.
"Sebastian", you whispered again, "Yes?", he answered and you mumbled, "Please...hug me", you said. Sebastian didn't expected this, but since he was the butler he did what you told him. He put off his shoes and snuggled into your bed, watching you and laid one arm around you. Then he pushed your body to his and tried to be careful to not wake up the cat. You closed your eyes, you felt so safe with him, so you snuggled to him and smiled, "Thank you" "Good night ___(y/n)___, Good night ___(c/n)___", he whispered and kissed your forehead again.